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[ Kaneki blinks. He didn't expect that answer, because it's just so... ]

... I'm not going to force you to accept, Sunny. I just want you to feel comfortable -

[ kaneki shakes his head softly ] But I'm alright. You don't need to worry about me at all, and I offered because I do think you are the right person.

But if you would rather not do that, we don't have to.

_{[ He's probably similar to Kaneki in regard he needs a little push when it comes to accepting something like this because of his low self esteem. Of course he wants to be considered a real brother to Kaneki, but something deep inside of him tells him he's not worthy of having a sibling again. Not after what happened to Mari. Not the pain he felt when he lost her. Not the pain he and his friends felt when he shut himself away from them. Somehow, he feels responsible for her death even though she was found by a noose made from a jumprope in his backyard.

The reassurance is all he needs before his chest begins to tighten as his emotions start to surface, much like when they had talked by the picnic table that day.

Kaneki wants this kind of relationship with him and even though they had established a familial bond already, this next step is a little overwhelming. He thought Kaneki would have lost interest in him by now. His voice is quiet, his voice cracking just slightly: ]}

... I want to.

_{[ A pause. ]}

More than anything... if you are certain.

[ They are very similar in a way. Which means Kaneki gets Sunny and his fears easily - he feels them as well. Now, Ken never had an actual sibling, but somehow he always feels that he might not be worth of the people he loves.

He gently squeezes Sunny's hand, before he leans over a little, so he can look back at the other boy ]

I am. If you are too. I don't want to disappoint you either, Sunny.

[ he wants to be the best brother he can be, for him ]

I hope I can make you happy.

_{[ Because he feels like that is the role of the younger sibling. He made Mari happy so many times. They shared so many things together. Hugs. Cuddling. They played instruments together. He was always there to listen to her when she had problems and comfort her when she needed it.

And just like that, she left Earth and nobody still knows why. She left no clues. No indication for why she did it. ]}

... And I hope you can protect me without me being too much of a hindrance to you.

_{[ Because to Sunny, that's what the older sibling did. Mari saved him from drowning. She took care of him when he needed protection. She was always there until.. she suddenly wasn't. Maybe if he hadn't been so much trouble, she wouldn't have committed suicide. Sunny still doesn't know. ]}

_{[ His voice drops as he breaks his hand away from Ken's and brings both of them to his face, red spreading to his ears. ]}

I love you very much, Ken-niichan. Thank you for accepting me.

_{[ An older sibling. He has one again. ]}

You aren't a hindrance, Sunny. I'm very happy I've met you. [ Ken smiles wide and he reaches for Sunny's head, to gently stroke his hair with a big smile, even if Sunny feels embarrassed ]

I love you too, Sunny. And- you know you can reach out to me anytime, alright? And visit, any time. [ Dirk would be fine with it, Kaneki knows.

he gently bumps his head against Sunny's ] I never had a little brother, so I will do my best for you, I promise.

_{[ He remains flustered as his head is caressed and he finally peers at Kaneki shyly. ]}

You.. haven't. That's right. I remember you saying that.

_{[ He bites his lip at that. He wants to stay with Kaneki as much as he can, but he doesn't want to be a burden. Despite Kaneki telling him he's not a hindrance, Something makes him believe that. Something tells him that in an eerie voice when he's trying to sleep. Instead, he changes the subject: ]}

How.. do we make this kind of magic happen?

[ kaneki pulls his hand away gently and nods.

Right, right. He reaches for a book, to flip through it until it lands on the page he wants to show Sunny ]

From what I've read - we put our spoons together with items we find comfort in. Like... a blanket. By accepting to be a family, your chosen item will make you feel safe from then on, by touching it when you are sad, anxious or lost.

_{[ What an interesting concept. Sunny is certain he has never heard of anything like this, but he supposes that is the perk of being in a magical world such as this. His dark eyes show a lot of interest at what Kaneki is saying and.. it looks like he is.. smiling. Yes, he's smiling. ]}

... Your item will help me feel less anxious and less afraid?

_{[ Groundbreaking cause, yes, he is almost always anxious and afraid. ]}

[ kaneki nods softly ]

And the same with me. The items we choose will bring us some relief in difficult situations.

[ he smiles wider, mostly because of Sunny's own smile ] Do you want to try it, then?

I...

_{[ --Don't know what to say, really. All this time in his tree house by himself, when he's alone with this thoughts and he feels the most afraid and anxious, he spends so much time in self deprecation and he's still not entirely sure why. Yes, Mari committed suicide, but maybe he felt like he was responsible somehow.

Somehow.

And here is someone who finds him a person worthy of close companionship. A family bond. His family was barely holding itself together ever since Mari left them.

Instead of using words, Sunny feels his face grow warm and he looks up at Kaneki with what appears to be the biggest smile he's made in awhile. In four years perhaps.

Then he nods.

Finally he says something after a moment of silence: ]}

... It won't hurt, right?

[ kaneki can't help but to smile back when Sunny does, matching his smile. It's good to see him smile like he means it, finally, a genuinely big one like a child should smile.

He ruffles SUnny's head a little, messing up his hair but that's fine-

He shakes his head softly ]

It won't. We just need to find two items we want to use.

A knife.

_{[ Why is that the first thing he suggests. In fact, Sunny pulls it out and looks at it, eyes focusing on his reflection in it. The blade looks a little dull as if it has been used some. ]}

[ Sunny NO ]

Ah--- I was thinking something more... comforting. That you can hug and have next to you without getting hurt. [ or losing any fingers ]

Like a sweater, or a blanket or... a toy.

_{[ The way Sunny deadass just stares at Kaneki shows he's not really about having something else for his comfort item and there's an intense silence until... ]}

A stuffed animal is fine.

_{[ oh thank god... ]}

[ thank god indeed.......... ]

Do you have one? or we could get one together.

It would be more special if we could get one together... maybe...

_{[ squints.. ]}

A centipede.

_{[ oh.. no. ]}

Just like you, nii-chan.

[ OH NO....... ]

Oh...

we can try to find one of a centipede. And I will get one of a black cat.

_{[ Sunny sucks in a breath. It's hard for him to understand this feeling of support, but it's nostalgic.. much like how Mari took care of him. Kaneki.. he's not a replacement by any means, but he's about the age she would be if she were living today.

In any case, he's always been fond of stuffed animals. ]}

.. You don't think a stuffed animal is too juvenile? I'm going to be seventeen in July.

_{[ Yet.. his mannerisms and way of speaking make it seem he's younger. He's also short for his age. ]}

Hmm? No, I don't think so. Even adults can like stuffed animals, why can't teenagers?

[ a pause ]

Unless you'd prefer not to have a stuffed animal? I'm fine with anything else. [ he doesn't want Sunny thinking he's treating him like a baby ]

_{[ He almost cuts off Kaneki in his bout of excitement (well.. as excited as someone like him can get..) ]}

I love stuffed animals. I hope that isn't weird.

_{[ It sounds like a stuffed animal is a good idea after all. ]}

I had many.. but I had to pack them away before I followed the fox here.

_{[ Oh, hm. ]}

It's not, don't worry. Dirk makes a lot of puppets, even, and they are similar to stuffed animals. [ no, they aren't..... ]

We can have stuffed animals for ourselves.

Why did you have to pack yours?

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I want to meet Dirk.

_{[ And judge him. Intimidate him. At his 155cm height. ]}

Oh.. um..

_{[ Sunny fidgets slightly. ]}

Before I came here.. I was getting ready to move away.. because..

_{[ It was just going to be better to leave the house behind that Mari grew up in. Leave the backyard that she took her life at. Leave everything else and try to move on. That's how his parents felt anyway. ]}

We.. wanted a change of scenery.

Of course. You can drop by any time, I will let him know when.

[ kaneki nods softly]

I see. [ and he understands, since Sunny's sister died. ] Were you excited for it?

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